Archive for October, 2013

Listen, Smith Of The Heavens

Wednesday, October 16th, 2013

Can’t say I’ve ever heard Icelandic folk music before, but after hearing this beautiful song, sung a cappella (by the group Arstidir) in a cavernous subway in Germany, I think I’m hooked. Now I just need to learn a little Icelandic.

The song in the video is “Heyr Himna Smiður”. It was originally written as a poem by Kolbeinn Tumason in 1208, while on his deathbed (the story of his death is sad and tragic.) The melody that accompanies the text was written by Þorkell Sigurbjörnsson, over 700 years later. With a hat tip to the contributors at Wikipedia, “the original text is presented here with 19th-century Icelandic spelling and a rough, literal translation into English.” The translation is a beautiful psalm to the Lord God; it could’ve been penned by King David himself. But I have no doubt the poem is even more lyrical when spoken in the original language.

Heyr, himna smiður,
hvers skáldið biður.
Komi mjúk til mín
miskunnin þín.
Því heit eg á þig,
þú hefur skaptan mig.
Eg er þrællinn þinn,
þú ert drottinn minn.

Guð, heit eg á þig,
að þú græðir mig.
Minnst þú, mildingur, mín,
mest þurfum þín.
Ryð þú, röðla gramur,
ríklyndur og framur,
hölds hverri sorg
úr hjartaborg.

Gæt þú, mildingur, mín,
mest þurfum þín,
helzt hverja stund
á hölda grund.
Send þú, meyjar mögur,
málsefnin fögur,
öll er hjálp af þér,
í hjarta mér.

Listen, smith of the heavens,
what the poet asks.
May softly come unto me
thy mercy.
So I call on thee,
for thou hast created me.
I am thy slave,
thou art my Lord.

God, I call on thee
to heal me.
Remember me, mild one,*
Most we need thee.
Drive out, O king of suns,
generous and great,
every human sorrow
from the city of the heart.

Watch over me, mild one,
Most we need thee,
truly every moment
in the world of men.
send us, son of the virgin,
good causes,
all aid is from thee,
in my heart.

* or mild king. This is a pun on the word mildingur.

The Kidney

Tuesday, October 15th, 2013

I have a mass on my right kidney, which was found somewhat accidentally during the diagnostic work done for the lymphoma in my jaw. That mass was assumed to be a typical renal cell carcinoma nodule. Treatment of renal cell carcinoma is usually pretty straightforward; partial or complete nephrectomy (removal of kidney tissue.) With that assumption, I went into the first meeting today with my urologist, Dr. Hofer, optimistic that being cancer free was just around the corner. Sure, getting there involved surgery, most likely a robotic-assisted laparoscopic partial nephrectomy, but compared to the chemotherapy and radiation therapy I’ve already been through, that should be a breeze. Relatively speaking, of course.

But, again the words “unusual” and “different” and “interesting” came up during the appointment. Dr. Hofer said my case would make a good trick question in a urologists’ exam. The curve ball that made him question the off-the-cuff diagnosis of renal cell carcinoma is the fact that I’ve already been treated for lymphoma, combined with what he saw in the PET scan; the mass just didn’t look like a typical renal cell carcinoma. He’s been doing this stuff for 20-plus years, and has seen a fair number of them, so he ought to know what they look like. He also said that lymphoma will occasionally grow on the kidney, and is easily mistaken for something else. But unlike renal cell carcinoma which is usually a contiguous mass and easily removed, lymphoma is more diffuse; surgical removal is less effective because the tumor’s boundaries aren’t well defined, and it often metastasizes to other organs.

So, given my history and the physical appearance of this particular mass, Dr. Hofer suggested performing a biopsy of the mass before diving in and cutting out a chunk of the kidney. If the biopsy shows that it is indeed renal cell carcinoma, then I’ll go back in for the partial nephrectomy. But if it turns out to be lymphoma, I will still have both my kidneys intact, and will go back to Dr. Bleeker and Sanford Oncology for more treatment. I’m not looking forward to that, but…

The biopsy will be done by one of the Sanford Radiology docs; they’ll use an ultrasound to guide a probe to the proper spot on my kidney to get a sample of the mass. Much less invasive than laparoscopic surgery, but will still require an overnight stay at the hospital. We don’t have a date just yet; should find that out tomorrow.

It’s a bit of a disappointment; here I thought I was a surgical procedure away from being done with this stuff, but now we’re faced with more questions and more diagnostics to try & get some answers.

BMWotD — ’95 540i M-Sport In The Best Color

Sunday, October 6th, 2013

The e34 M-Sport 540i pushes a lot of the right buttons for me (I’ve drooled over them before) but this one is extra special, and the reason can be summed up in one word; Hellrot. Red cars just make me jiggy. The ’91 Dinan 535i Turbo that caught my eye a while back was nice, but this one, with all the M-Sport goodies. Mmmmm! Unfortunately, and as usual, the asking price for this one is way outside my price range, but a guy can dream.

1995 BMW 540i M-Sport Hellrot Red/M-Cloth Hurricane Manual Sedan
In late 1995, just prior to switching to the E39 5-series body style for the 1997 model year (there is no such thing as a U.S. 1996 model year 5-series), BMW pumped one last breath of life into the V8 powered, E34-bodied, 540i for the U.S. market: The 1995 540i M Sport.
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All Clear

Wednesday, October 2nd, 2013

Wow; thought I hit publish on this one already. Now it’s old news (so I guess that would be “olds” instead of “news”?) I got some really good news from Sanford Oncology following the PET scan two weeks ago; the lymphoma in my jaw is gone!

I’m still not out of the woods, but it’s definitely a step in the right direction. There is still the mass in my kidney to be dealt with, so I have an appointment with a urologist in a couple of weeks to talk about the options for getting that removed (more on that when I know more.)

As for the lymphoma, since things are clear, I only need to return to the oncologist in three months for a checkup, then go back for another PET scan in six months.

Life is good. God is better.